So today I want to talk about something that is really close to me personally and also something that effects millions of people on a daily basis.
I'm not exactly a thin woman, I'm curvy and I like that but I'm not healthy.
I'm going to be starting a journey to lose weight, not because I feel like I'm not sexy if I'm not thin; but because I want to be healthy. Something I don't feel I am because I can't walk fifteen minutes without feeling out of breath.
The thing that bugs me the most is how women believe they should be thin to fit in with peoples expectations. Because for some reason everywhere you look in social media has something to say about what they think is normal.
Everything is so focused around size that we forget the most important part, health. Thin people can be just as unhealthy as larger people. Not only physically unhealthy but mentally as well. The stress some people put themselves under to look 'perfect' or try to look perfect or even the stress that we don't fit in with social expectations.
Who cares? We shouldn't be focused on the size of our jeans or how many rolls we have, we should be focused on being healthy and looking after our bodies. We need to be comfortable in our own skin and like the way we look, love the way we look even.
So I'll be doing some progress blogs, letting you know how I get on :)
Let me know if you have any thoughts or advise :) (I also don't own the copyrights to the picture above)
Until next time :D
So today I thought I would do something a little more light hearted as my last couple of post have been a bit...boo hoo.
I got my Urban Decay makeup for Christmas because I don't know about you guys but I do not have the money to buy these amazing products!
I thought I would do just a little review on the few products I do have which includes the Urban Decay ultimate basics eye shadow palette, the smokey eye palette, the primer potion and the Perversion water proof mascara and eyeliner.
I'm going to start with the primer potion because there's not a whole lot of stuff to say about it. The primer potion basically lets your eye shadow stick to your lids a bit more which makes it last longer. It also makes it looks a little smoother and stops it from creasing over time. Now I'm not one to really use primer but this stuff has converted me. I could go on a night out and wake up the next morning with my eye makeup still intact. Before you say "that's gross" it is indeed but when you're steaming your face off my first thought is normally 'pizza' rather than I better remove this makeup. The thing with Urban Decay is it may be expensive but it is definitely worth the money. Most of my makeup is cheap stuff from Ebay. I have loads of it and I love it because it was cheap and it does the job, but I didn't realise what I was missing until I found this stuff!
So that brings us onto this awesome stuff!
The Perversion mascara and eyeliner is stuff that I use literally every day, well the mascara I use every day because I'm too lazy to do wings every day. It's incredibly waterproof and does not come off easily. I say this as a good thing and by all means, it is. But when you actually want to remove it, my eyes feel like I've been washing them with gravel. This is just for the eyeliner though, the mascara comes off relatively easily with warm water, but even water and soap the eyeliner just does not want to come off my face.
The Ultimate Basics palette is my go to eye shadow for pretty much everything. The colours in this palette are very subtle which is awesome for every day use. I'm not one of those girls who wears a full face of makeup every single day, like I said, I'm way to lazy for that. But on the rare occasion I do wear makeup to work It's either eyeliner only or eye shadow from this palette. There's more than enough variety of colours to build it up while keeping it almost natural. My favourite colour in this palette though has to be Lethal (top right) it's such a deep purple but it goes with pretty much any other colour in the palette and matches perfectly with Smolder from the smokey eye palette which is an almost metallic purple.
ThaAnd now onto my favourite item from my little bundle goodies. The Naked Smokey Eye Palette, can we all just take a moment of silence in appreciation for this please?
The Smokey eye palette is by far my favourite piece of makeup I have ever owned. However it isn't something I would personally wear on a day to day basis. The colours are mostly very dark which makes it quite difficult to pull this kind of look off if you're not rocking a killer outfit to go with it.
One of the things I love is how pigmented the colours are, this goes for both the smokey and the basics palettes. Just one brush full can literally do your entire eye, maybe both. This means the shadows will last so much longer than my cheapo stuff that you need to apply twice just to get the minimum coverage.
Urban Decay products may be on the pricey side but it is professional make up and It is definitely worth the money if you want better quality make up that lasts for freaking ages.
That's my thoughts on the products anyway guys!
Hope you enjoyed and see ya next time :)
So this post is about jealous, shocker as it says it in the title right?
Jealousy is something that I have to deal with every single day and it's crushing. I wanted to write a blog on this because it's so easy to have trust issues nowadays.
I'm not going to go into all the details as to where mine originated from but it's painful every single day. I know this is a topic many of you will struggle with as well and I want to try and help as much as I can, not just for you guys but for myself.
The thing with jealousy/trust issues is that it's an ugly monster. It really is. But at the same time, it's so difficult to let go of the things in which have hurt you. It's haunting and it stays with you for so long. It's difficult to let go of such things that have had such an impact on your life.
The man in the picture means the world to me. But because of what people have done in the past, I find it hard to trust him and really I have no reason to doubt him. We have our ups and downs just like every relationship but he's never hurt me by cheating or whatever. He's never looked at another girl in that way, he's never messaged a girl in a way he shouldn't. He would never do anything to hurt me and I know he wouldn't; but yet I still worry. That may just be a part of my personality as I mentioned in a previous post I worry, A LOT.
At the moment I'm working on getting over my issues. That part of my life is behind me, it may be a bit dramatic to say I'm haunted by my demons on a daily basis. That's what it feels like at least. I need to learn to deal with the pain rather than taking it out on him when he's done nothing wrong.
I've chosen to be with this man and it was the best decision I have ever made. He is not perfect; he plays games farrrr too much and my god does his ass stink, but I have still chosen to be with him, to trust him. If I thought for one moment that he would do something behind my back, I would leave. I have done in the past, whenever the going has gotten tough I've run.
I want to reiterate, this is not a boohoo sob story post. This is not a post because I am after attention, I mean I am an attention hoe but this isn't one of those times. I'm writing this post because I hope on some level it may help some of you. I'm also hoping some of you would give me advise.
I'm not entirely un-trusting. I'm not one of those girls who wants him to text back mega quick or spend every single minute with me, regardless of what he thinks. When he goes out without me on a night out or whatever I don't worry that he's doing something he shouldn't be because for some reason I have more confidence in him when he's out without me than when we're out together, strange huh?
When he goes out what I worry about is whether he's okay, now he can't hold his alcohol very well. So when he goes out he tends to not only forget his limits, but tells them to bugger off entirely. I worry that he's going to hurt himself or get into trouble.
And then he'll stumble on in and tell me how much he loves me before proceeding to pass out on the bathroom floor.
The more I write this the more I realise how silly I am so much of the time. I've been very lucky to find a man like him and I only hope that you guys can find someone like him too. He has done nothing to deserve this kind of treatment from me and it's not like I intentionally do it.
I feel like I've rambled on enough about this and I'm sorry it's not entirely a happy topic but I felt like I needed to vent and if it helps you guys then all the better. If you have any advise for me please let me know, I'm always open to suggestions :)
Until next time guys x
So I want you guys to get to know me a little better. I am very awkward. I'm the kind of person who finds it very difficult to make friends and I feel like a lot of people can relate to that.
I worry, a lot. I worry that people aren't going to like me, I worry that I will annoy them and ultimately drive them away. I try so hard to make people like me and I try to be funny but sometimes it just comes off plain weird.
However! In the weirdest of times you will find someone, or in my case, two someones who relish in your weirdness with you. The two hotties in the picture with me aren't exactly strangers. I've known them for quite a while at work but for some reason we've never hung out. Well this changed in literally the blink of an eye. I felt like a blizzard had descended on me. Not that I'm complaining mind. I was literally like an excitable puppy. As sad as that sounds, a woman in her twenties should not be so freaking excited about making new friends. But hey, they embraced my weirdness and my awkwardness and welcomed me into their little group.
The thing I needed to realise is that I don't need to try hard. I don't need to pretend to be someone else because the people who are truly worth your time will always accept you for who you are. Now I know this sounds so cliché with the whole 'the right ones will love you no matter what' but it is true. We really don't need to try so hard. People get so hung up thinking they need to be a certain way because the media have dictated to us so many times what people should be like. Women should be curvy because men like curves, men should be muscular because men are supposed to be tough. The problem today is that so many people want the approval of complete strangers. Not that I'm innocent to this, I myself do the same thing sometimes. I crave the approval of others because I never had it growing up; don't think I'm doing the whole 'I had a bad childhood feel sorry for me' thing because I'm not like that.
Things are difficult for everyone, everyone goes through tough times and it moulds us into who we are. I turned out awkward and clingy and I crave attention. But in recent events with Jacqui and Vicki I feel like I'm actually getting there, and yes, Jacqui is the creator of The Brough Blog which turns out to be quite a hit and my inspiration for starting my own blog.
So guys that's all I really had to say, I hope you guys are happy and if you're going through a tough time I hope it gets better.
See ya guys :D
So this is my first blog post, obviously.
You will need to be patient with me as I will literally post random stuff. For now though lets just start with a little bit about me.
My name is Sue and I am a writer, an aspiring writer as I don't yet have any real merit to my name.
It's a start though and like everyone else, I have to start somewhere. This has been something I've wanted for a very long time, since I was a child. Writing was one of the few ways in which I found freedom, an escape. I won't start with the whole 'I had a rough childhood thing' nobody has it easy. It wasn't easy or nice but writing and horse riding got me through it.
But I was never any good. Seriously my writing was terrible. Not that I think it's exactly amazing now, but it's much better than what I used to write I can tell you that much.
One thing I will tell you is I am quite opinionated, not to the point where I'll be like 'you're wrong, screw you and your opinions' of course not, I have opinions just like everyone else and I will voice them, which is pretty much what bloggers are...
Anyway guys this is just a short introduction to me and my blog, I hope you stick around for more!