Okay so I know I haven't posted anything in a verrrrry long time, but! That will all be changing.
So with the new year fast approaching, I wanted to reflect back and actually think about this past year.
Going through this year has just felt like it's gotten worse, and worse and worse as it's gone on. But, as I sit here now I just think about all the good that has actually come from it.
New friends and relationships, new hobbies, new ambitions and more importantly, I've learned so so much this last year.
I've learned that no matter what, if I can't trust anything else; I can trust my gut instincts. And that, to me is one of the most important things I could have learned. I know now that whenever I feel something is wrong or off that I have to trust it. Because at the end of the day, the sad reality of it is that people will treat you exactly how they're going to treat you and it doesn't matter how well you treat them; you cannot force a person to treat you well, you can't force them to be loyal or treat you how you deserve to be treated. What you can control is how you handle things.
Now, I admit that I haven't always handled things well. But I like to think I've learned now what I have to do in future.
One thing I think we need to remember is when people treat us badly is it's nothing to do with us. The way people treat each other is more a reflection of themselves rather than anything else. This isn't a justification of their behavior and in no way does it make it okay. But what other reason could there possibly be for someone treating you less than you deserve?
Letting go of things is something I've struggled with a lot. I've held onto the past more than I should have and what I need to remember is the only person holding on hurts, is me. Because people who wrong you aren't going to be sat there grieving, they're not going to be wondering how you are because the simple fact is if they really, truly cared about you; they wouldn't have treated you such a way to begin with. And as painful as it may be to come to that realization, the only way from there, is up. Once you know your worth and how you deserve to be treated; everything opens up and you feel a million times lighter, as I do now.
I'm not angry about the things that have happened, I'm not hurting or upset or anything anymore. I'm simply picking myself up like I have done a million times before and will continue to do so a million times in the future.
So for those of you who have had a shitty year, a shitty few years or longer. Remember that you have to pick yourself up and keep going because nothing gets done when you hide yourself away.
More importantly, put yourself first. I don't mean become a self centered asshole but look after yourself, do things just for you every now and then. Stop trying to please everyone else and just do things that are going to make you happy because at the end of the day, the only person you can really depend on; is yourself. So be kind to yourself and as cheesy as it sounds, learn to love yourself and understand what you deserve and don't except any less than just that.
So I hope you all had a good Christmas and I hope you all have an epic new year, I plan to spend mine insanely drunk ^_^
Until next time guys x
So I'm very excited to announce that Descended is now available for purchase on the Amazon Kindle store!
You guys have been so great along this process, helping me pick the cover and being so supportive along the way so really guys thank you so much.
This is just going to be a short post really just letting you know it is available to purchase and if you don't have a Kindle, fear not; you can download the free Kindle app on your smart phone and read it the exact same way :D
Again the magic button is below and since I released a snippet of Descended, there was a huge spike in sales for Hell's Rising; so I will include a link for both books and you can buy both in one bundle if you wish as well.
I am currently working on the third instalment and getting the covers sorted to release the paper back versions for those of you (including myself) who prefer traditional books. Big things coming up so for now I hope you enjoy Axel's journey :D
Until next time guys
So I'm really excited to announce that the second instalment in my Greek Gods serious 'A Tale Of The Gods' is finished and will soon be available to purchase from the kindle store!
Above is a sample cover which the public voted for, I need to redo it to scale it to Amazon's file size requirements but it should be roughly the same :)
I want people to be just as excited as I am about this release and so I have decided to share with you a snippet from the book, I hope you enjoy and let me know your thoughts :D
She didn’t care anymore. She turned back into her human form. She leant forward and let her head fall into her hands as her body racked with sobs. Her father said nothing. She felt a hand on her shoulder. She didn’t lift her head. The hand moved down her arm and cupped her chin, the fingers pulled her chin up gently and she found herself gazing into muddy brown eyes. He was smiling at her with that cheeky boy like grin, his wonky nose pressed into her cheek as his lips grazed the side of her mouth. She stared. She couldn’t believe it. He was back. She flung herself into his arms and they both fell to the ground. She hugged him fiercely and he laughed into her red hair before she kissed him, hard. But all too soon the illusion vanished. He disappeared into a puff of smoke. Her heart ached. For a moment she thought her father had brought him back. Instead he brought her more pain than if he had just said no.
“Why would you do that?” she whispered as she turned on him.
I hope this snippet leaves you guys with questions and wanting to find out what happened. The magic button below will take you to the Hell's Rising page on the Kindle store, just in case you want to catch up with everything that's happened so far :)
Until next time guys x
So day 3 of the blog challenge!
The question today was 'your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it' In all honesty It's a good question. I've never really been happy with what I look like.
When I was in school I was ridiculously skinny but I always thought I was fat, I did my best to eat as little as possible and I was very into running so I burned so many calories. I looked unhealthy. Over the years I stopped caring and just ate instead, it started to take hold when I was 16 and I started gaining so much weight. I tried to work out and eat right but I just wasn't motivated enough.
Of course being in relationships makes you gain weight when you get comfortable as well. I'm not unhappy with my body now, I would love to be healthy and fit but I'm not focused on my weight any more.
I did a post previously talking about my fitness goals and only now realised how much I need to actually do them. But don't for one second think I will be giving up chicken wings! No thanks I love them too much. But it's time I made a change and not just talking about it, not for vanity; Not only is it to be healthier physically but mentally as well, maybe I can turn it into some weird form of therapy?
We'll see how it all goes :)
Until next time guys ^^
So carrying on with my 30 day blog challenge and the next one (in case you haven't already guessed from the title) is where do you see yourself in 10 years.
I really like this question because it makes me reflect on things which have happened in the past and where I thought I would have ended up 10 years ago.
I mean 10 years ago I was 11 and wanted to be a nurse, hairdresser, rocket scientist and in my spare time; a horse trainer.
Over the years only really the horse training stuck, I was hooked on horses. I remember first seeing them on TV and thinking how powerful they were and how easily they trusted their rider, I wanted that. I wanted to put my whole faith into these huge animals. I started riding when I was 9 and I never wanted to do anything else.
I carried on my horsey dream into college where I studied 2 courses in equine management and even went on to study equine in university; it didn't work out and when I left university I spent some time in India training horses and it was amazing. But the time there was cut short and I came back and ended up gaining loads of weight which meant I couldn't ride. Instead of losing the weight I just ate more due to being fed up that I couldn't ride. It was always the plan to get back into it and do it again but I never had the motivation and so I got stuck in call centers and honestly hated it.
I tried sales and various other things but I still wanted horses in my life, I tried applying but nobody would hire me because I didn't have the experience. So I ended up back in another call center and honestly it's been the best thing for me.
I've let go of my horsey dream, this isn't how I imagined my life going but I still want horses in my life. Not as a career but I still want to own one, or a hundred.
So nowadays I'm still in the call center in car insurance (it's a freaking nightmare - parents need to chill really) but I've just been promoted into the IT department which I cannot wait for.
So when I get asked 'where do you see yourself in 10 years?' I honestly have no idea, I would like to imagine being a successful author or having a career in IT, I would be more than happy with both. The good thing is I can still do my writing and blogging while working in IT and progressing in that field so I'm not losing out on anything.
I'd also like to imagine I'd be married with kids and my own house and dogs and horses of course...let's keep that to ourselves though, I don't want to find a man shaped hole in the wall.
Life is a mystery and I didn't work hard enough for my career in equine, I won't make that mistake again.
What are your guys hopes and dreams for the next 10 years?
let me know in the comments below :D
Until next time :)
So it's been a while since I last posted, I have been a very busy woman recently. Obviously I don't need to explain to you that sometimes life just gets a bit too much to focus on your passions. Whereas I would love to do nothing more than write, it's not yet a reality. I have no doubt that one day I can live off my writing, but for now; it's a hobby and a very time consuming hobby.
So as most of you will know I published my first book, Hell's Rising over 2 months ago. It's had the response I was hoping for and so I have been working on the second instalment.
Introducing...drum roll please... Descended!
Now if you've looked under the 'A Tale Of The Gods' tab you will have seen the information from Hell's Rising. Allow me to go into a little more detail. The series is focused around Greek mythology. I chose Greek mythology because it's such a huge
subject. I have a hundred ideas for things I could write about.
One of the reasons I love writing fantasy is because I can make up my own rules. I'm not limited to any one thing. I can do Greek mythology and incorporate other things, but that will come in time.
This was only intended to be a short post to let you guys know I'm still here but I'm working on something exciting!
Stay tuned as there will be regular updates and I will get back into the swing of blogging :)
Until next time.
So today I want to talk about something that is really close to me personally and also something that effects millions of people on a daily basis.
I'm not exactly a thin woman, I'm curvy and I like that but I'm not healthy.
I'm going to be starting a journey to lose weight, not because I feel like I'm not sexy if I'm not thin; but because I want to be healthy. Something I don't feel I am because I can't walk fifteen minutes without feeling out of breath.
The thing that bugs me the most is how women believe they should be thin to fit in with peoples expectations. Because for some reason everywhere you look in social media has something to say about what they think is normal.
Everything is so focused around size that we forget the most important part, health. Thin people can be just as unhealthy as larger people. Not only physically unhealthy but mentally as well. The stress some people put themselves under to look 'perfect' or try to look perfect or even the stress that we don't fit in with social expectations.
Who cares? We shouldn't be focused on the size of our jeans or how many rolls we have, we should be focused on being healthy and looking after our bodies. We need to be comfortable in our own skin and like the way we look, love the way we look even.
So I'll be doing some progress blogs, letting you know how I get on :)
Let me know if you have any thoughts or advise :) (I also don't own the copyrights to the picture above)
Until next time :D
So today I thought I would do something a little more light hearted as my last couple of post have been a bit...boo hoo.
I got my Urban Decay makeup for Christmas because I don't know about you guys but I do not have the money to buy these amazing products!
I thought I would do just a little review on the few products I do have which includes the Urban Decay ultimate basics eye shadow palette, the smokey eye palette, the primer potion and the Perversion water proof mascara and eyeliner.
I'm going to start with the primer potion because there's not a whole lot of stuff to say about it. The primer potion basically lets your eye shadow stick to your lids a bit more which makes it last longer. It also makes it looks a little smoother and stops it from creasing over time. Now I'm not one to really use primer but this stuff has converted me. I could go on a night out and wake up the next morning with my eye makeup still intact. Before you say "that's gross" it is indeed but when you're steaming your face off my first thought is normally 'pizza' rather than I better remove this makeup. The thing with Urban Decay is it may be expensive but it is definitely worth the money. Most of my makeup is cheap stuff from Ebay. I have loads of it and I love it because it was cheap and it does the job, but I didn't realise what I was missing until I found this stuff!
So that brings us onto this awesome stuff!
The Perversion mascara and eyeliner is stuff that I use literally every day, well the mascara I use every day because I'm too lazy to do wings every day. It's incredibly waterproof and does not come off easily. I say this as a good thing and by all means, it is. But when you actually want to remove it, my eyes feel like I've been washing them with gravel. This is just for the eyeliner though, the mascara comes off relatively easily with warm water, but even water and soap the eyeliner just does not want to come off my face.
The Ultimate Basics palette is my go to eye shadow for pretty much everything. The colours in this palette are very subtle which is awesome for every day use. I'm not one of those girls who wears a full face of makeup every single day, like I said, I'm way to lazy for that. But on the rare occasion I do wear makeup to work It's either eyeliner only or eye shadow from this palette. There's more than enough variety of colours to build it up while keeping it almost natural. My favourite colour in this palette though has to be Lethal (top right) it's such a deep purple but it goes with pretty much any other colour in the palette and matches perfectly with Smolder from the smokey eye palette which is an almost metallic purple.
ThaAnd now onto my favourite item from my little bundle goodies. The Naked Smokey Eye Palette, can we all just take a moment of silence in appreciation for this please?
The Smokey eye palette is by far my favourite piece of makeup I have ever owned. However it isn't something I would personally wear on a day to day basis. The colours are mostly very dark which makes it quite difficult to pull this kind of look off if you're not rocking a killer outfit to go with it.
One of the things I love is how pigmented the colours are, this goes for both the smokey and the basics palettes. Just one brush full can literally do your entire eye, maybe both. This means the shadows will last so much longer than my cheapo stuff that you need to apply twice just to get the minimum coverage.
Urban Decay products may be on the pricey side but it is professional make up and It is definitely worth the money if you want better quality make up that lasts for freaking ages.
That's my thoughts on the products anyway guys!
Hope you enjoyed and see ya next time :)
So I want you guys to get to know me a little better. I am very awkward. I'm the kind of person who finds it very difficult to make friends and I feel like a lot of people can relate to that.
I worry, a lot. I worry that people aren't going to like me, I worry that I will annoy them and ultimately drive them away. I try so hard to make people like me and I try to be funny but sometimes it just comes off plain weird.
However! In the weirdest of times you will find someone, or in my case, two someones who relish in your weirdness with you. The two hotties in the picture with me aren't exactly strangers. I've known them for quite a while at work but for some reason we've never hung out. Well this changed in literally the blink of an eye. I felt like a blizzard had descended on me. Not that I'm complaining mind. I was literally like an excitable puppy. As sad as that sounds, a woman in her twenties should not be so freaking excited about making new friends. But hey, they embraced my weirdness and my awkwardness and welcomed me into their little group.
The thing I needed to realise is that I don't need to try hard. I don't need to pretend to be someone else because the people who are truly worth your time will always accept you for who you are. Now I know this sounds so cliché with the whole 'the right ones will love you no matter what' but it is true. We really don't need to try so hard. People get so hung up thinking they need to be a certain way because the media have dictated to us so many times what people should be like. Women should be curvy because men like curves, men should be muscular because men are supposed to be tough. The problem today is that so many people want the approval of complete strangers. Not that I'm innocent to this, I myself do the same thing sometimes. I crave the approval of others because I never had it growing up; don't think I'm doing the whole 'I had a bad childhood feel sorry for me' thing because I'm not like that.
Things are difficult for everyone, everyone goes through tough times and it moulds us into who we are. I turned out awkward and clingy and I crave attention. But in recent events with Jacqui and Vicki I feel like I'm actually getting there, and yes, Jacqui is the creator of The Brough Blog which turns out to be quite a hit and my inspiration for starting my own blog.
So guys that's all I really had to say, I hope you guys are happy and if you're going through a tough time I hope it gets better.
See ya guys :D
So this is my first blog post, obviously.
You will need to be patient with me as I will literally post random stuff. For now though lets just start with a little bit about me.
My name is Sue and I am a writer, an aspiring writer as I don't yet have any real merit to my name.
It's a start though and like everyone else, I have to start somewhere. This has been something I've wanted for a very long time, since I was a child. Writing was one of the few ways in which I found freedom, an escape. I won't start with the whole 'I had a rough childhood thing' nobody has it easy. It wasn't easy or nice but writing and horse riding got me through it.
But I was never any good. Seriously my writing was terrible. Not that I think it's exactly amazing now, but it's much better than what I used to write I can tell you that much.
One thing I will tell you is I am quite opinionated, not to the point where I'll be like 'you're wrong, screw you and your opinions' of course not, I have opinions just like everyone else and I will voice them, which is pretty much what bloggers are...
Anyway guys this is just a short introduction to me and my blog, I hope you stick around for more!